What a Rollercoaster that was…

My goodness… the last few weeks has been such an emotional rollercoaster. My dear old dad died last month following an infection after suffering a massive stroke. The weeks following his death have been bizarre from being amazed at experiencing the loss of a parent to feeling desolate at the loss of a parent. I have experienced so many emotions I am not sure where I am, what the date is and what the hell is going on. I have been off work for the past 5 weeks and I have started to notice that I am getting bored. I am going to pick my self pitying ass up and get back to work on Monday.

I have also noticed a few other things that have me concerned:

  1. My clothes are tight
  2. it is a real pain to get up off the couch – literally as my joints ache and I feel I am heaving myself up
  3. my skin is really dry to the point of being painful
  4. my joints are really sore
  5. I feel like I am exhausted after a short walk
  6. I have heart palpitations
  7. I am thirsty all the time
  8. I can’t bend over to tie my laces
  9. I can feel my belly lying on my lap (again)
  10. I have gained plenty of lbs

Well that is for starters…


  1. water, water, water – drink it all in
  2. get moving. I have downloaded the couch to 5k and I am going to get running again
  3. back to regular classes at the gym
  4. for 1 week only to kick start my weightloss I am going to do the Special K one week food plan starting Sunday.

I hope in a week I will no longer be straining in my trousers. I only have 2 pairs left I can wear and I am beginning to really hate them. I was so close to buying the next size up but I refuse to do so. I binned several pairs of size 18s and I am not buying anymore. I need to try something new this month as I promised for each month this year. I was actually thinking about having some beauty pampering treatments. I have never had anything like manicure, pedicure or eyebrow waxing so I am going to having something done. Last month was a bit of a wipeout where goals are concerned. I did manage to start clearing out the clutter and I did also start a plan to get rid of the debt and increase the savings. burying my dad was the ‘try something new’ I know he would have howled at that one, bless him. x


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